WanderLustGuy ... Where ever you are, thank you for your OP.
We all ? ? or , I have fingers in pots, or thoughts on why?? or what was that all about??? from years, decades past.
Recently I have looked at old photos so maybe that too has helped me together with your OP.
Something eventful, out of my control happened to me when I was 18 years old.
Your OP made me wonder why was my mom so cruel to me??? Where was she when she was 18?? What was happening in her life then, that she took her hurt and anger "out on me"???
Bingo. The love of her life, was a married man, that she fooled around with, greatly. He was the love of her life.
They did some stupid things, and he went to Prison. She embraced him in the Courthouse, for the last time. She never saw him agsin .
Many years later, she was married, had children, was "settled" down. When the love of her life, got out of Prison, she knew where he was living. She arranged a family "vacation" to visit an Aunt that she did not even like, but it put her in close proximity to where he was living.
Before she could arrange some excuse to drive out to where he was, a death occurred in the family and all of us had to leave the city we were in immediately.
Her old love, died the following year. She never got to touch him, or hold him or be near him again since her tearful goodbye in the Courthouse, with his wife looking on .
It must have torn her up, something awful. Being the cruel sort that she was, she visited her sorrow, hurt and anger on me, years later.
If she couldn't have the man she loved, neither could I.
This has been very healing for me to write. Maybe I will erase it in 30 minutes.
I am "older" with "understanding" now. It doesn't make it any type of right what she did to me, but I do not have to carry the question of Why?? with me to my death bed, anymore.
LoisLane , who did not have to read stories about psychopaths, she lived with one.